Your pain is your power (IF you choose to alchemize it)
Hello, my friends. The portal is open, and I want you to know that your pain has the potential to become your power.
Your greatest pain and suffering can become your greatest power, but only if you choose to alchemize it, to transmute it, to merge with it, to integrate it, and thus to transcend it.
This is how we heal from generational trauma, from ancestral trauma, from complex trauma. It is all the same thing from the higher spiritual vantage point. You need to stop running from yourself and from all the ways that you feel, because you need to meet yourself on the deepest levels in order to heal.
So when you are in suffering and you feel like you cannot take it anymore, you need to surrender to that feeling and hold space for it.
So when you surrender to these feelings of pain and suffering and rage and grief and anxiety, it doesn't mean that you continue to loop them and repeat them and recreate them as you have been doing your entire life. Surrendering is quite different.
This is when we say, I am not resisting you anymore. I am not trying to fix you, to override you, to make you better, to get distance from you. I am not doing any of those things. I am surrendering to the full experience of you.
When you were traumatized, and you were traumatized repeatedly when you are dealing with generational trauma, that is literally what it is, right, repeated victimizations. So when you were traumatized, when you were victimized, you were imprinted with these energies and they now live inside of you.
So this whole process is just about going within and meeting yourselves at the deepest depths.
You cannot re-traumatize yourself by going within and feeling what it is you already carry.
Yes, you can re-traumatize yourself if you go out into the world and you walk with the energy of victimhood, you will inevitably meet another perpetrator and be victimized once again.
But when you do this shadow work, when you surrender to what is already there and meet these unhealed parts of yourself in their full experience without censoring it, without resisting it, without judging it, without dimming it down.
"And just say, "I'm f*cking here for you, and I love you, and I see you, and it's okay. You are allowed to exist in my energy body. I am not trying to separate myself from you anymore."
"I am facing my pain, I'm facing my shadows, I'm facing my demons, call it whatever you want, I'm facing my inner children, I'm facing all of these unhealed parts of myself that have been driving me through life unconsciously. I surrender to seeing what is already there."
And when the portal is open, you go in. You surrender when you get triggered, when it's coming up, when you're feeling it, you let it happen, okay?
So these unhealed parts of yourself that were developed in the moments of your traumas, their number one job is to protect you from your pain, and they are going to jump in front every time you try to surrender and get underneath and actually feel those core feelings, those deeper memories and energies that are suppressed.
These unhealed parts, these false selves, are going to jump out in front and try and distract you. They're going to pull you off the path of healing. They don't want you to heal because for them that means a certain death, right?
It's not a true death because you reintegrate these energies with love, but they see it as death. This is why we call it ego death. You actually feel like you're dying when you go deeper into these traumas, you're like, I can't, I'm going to die. No, you're not.
You're going to go deeper with love and compassion for every single unhealed part of yourself. And when the portal is open, when the pain and suffering are being felt, that is your opportunity.
This is how we make the subconscious conscious. We do it through the emotional body, which is the same thing as saying the energy body because emotions are energy in motion.
So when that trigger comes up, when you're activated, instead of trying to fix it, you go in and you go deeper like a deep sea diver. You go to the bottom of the ocean that is you and discover all of the treasures that are there. They are treasures. You, the true you, your soul consciousness is a beautiful divine child of God.
There is nothing wrong with you.
All the lies, all the distortions, all of the lower frequency imprints that you have been subjected to are not who you really are. But what happens is that your consciousness, it got shattered during these moments of trauma.
So there's all of these fragments. The psyche is fragmented. The emotional body is fragmented. And it is up to you to go in and retrieve these lost, unhealed parts of yourself and bring them back home.
You bring them back home like lost children. "Hey, it's okay.
That's not actually true. That's just the boogeyman in the closet of my own psyche. Come home to love. Come home to my heart. Come home to source."
This is a big job. You're going to have to do this repeatedly every time something arises. And every time you take a step deeper into your healing journey, another unhealed part of yourself is going to jump forward and say, that's enough. You don't need to go there. Let's go over here instead. Oh, look over there. It's going to distract you because that's its job.
So the level of surrender has to be very deep. And the level of compassion that you hold for yourself has to be infinite, just like God's compassion for you. You hold infinite compassion for the parts of yourself that are angry, raging, grieving, anxious, panicked, shameful, all of it.
And eventually you merge with them, and they collapse, and they collapse, and they collapse, and they collapse. And then the energy is just integrated back into your field. It's transmuted. It's alchemized.
And you begin to become more powerful, more authentically powerful. We are not talking about power from the ego, or power over other people, or power because you finally made it, and now you've got money, or now you've got the person. It's all bullshit.
I'm talking about true, authentic power, like you know who you are. And you walk with so much love and dignity.
You walk with a knowing, and you are guided by something higher. You are not guided by your ego on this journey. You are guided by your soul consciousness.
And this is going to bring you into your power. This is going to bring you on your rightful path. This is going to help you set up the boundaries that you need to set up in your life so that you stop repeating the same painful, karmic situations over and over again.
Nobody can do this for you. You are a sovereign being. You have free will. Nobody can shift your consciousness for you. No therapist, no medication, no nothing, not me, not anyone, no thing. It is up to you.
Healing from ancestral trauma is an inside job. It is a shift in consciousness. And yes, it will trickle down into the physical. Your life will ultimately change dramatically because you are shifting from the inside out.
And you do that through surrender, through loving yourself, through identifying all these unhealed parts of yourself that are in conflict, and killing them all with kindness, bringing them back home, witnessing the full depth of your emotional experiences. You are not going into the darkness to sit there and go, "Oh, why me? I'm going to die. Oh, no. Life is shit." No, that's not it. That's not it. It's deeper than that, okay?
You sit there in your wise I AM. You sit there with your soul and go, this too is okay. I am okay. No matter what experience I have lived through or what experience is happening right now, I am okay.
Your pain is your power, but only if you choose to transmute it, to alchemize it, to merge with it, and transcend it, okay? This is how we heal. This is how we break free.
If you are an awakening soul and you are dealing with ancestral trauma in this lifetime, it's your time to break free.
You're clearing all of it. I am not talking about just clearing some anxiety, but deep down inside you're still depressed and this whole life is just pain. I am not talking about healing depression, but deep down inside you're still angry. I'm not talking about curing social anxiety, but deep down inside you're still shameful.
I'm not talking about any of this surface level things. I'm talking about all of it. We clear all of it, and yes, there's a lot because it's generational.
It's a big job. It is not for the feint of heart. It is for the brave souls who are ready to transcend this ancestral trauma and step into their authentic power and fix this sh*t once and for all because we are shifting into a new paradigm and it's time.
It is enough, okay? It is enough. It stops with you, but it doesn't stop with you and some external experience, it stops with you because you decide you are no longer afraid of your feelings and your emotions and your patterns and you start to face them and meet them, not with resistance, not like a bully parent. You don't do to your inner child what your perpetrators did to you.
You stop the whole cycle with self-compassion, with self-love, with infinite patience for whatever needs to run its course because there is a process of these trapped energies coming up, these suppressed memories coming up and unwinding, okay?
The pain is the portal to power. Don't forget.
Before I go, I have created a self-forgiveness meditation. This is extremely powerful. This is to help you release resistance towards yourself. I highly recommend that you download it. It is free. It will cost you nothing. The link I will put in the description.
Sit with it, okay? Just sit with it because you need to forgive yourself, not because you're wrong, but because there's a lot going on. And when we're traumatized, there's a lot of internal conflict, okay? So you want to just soothe everything. So check that out.
And I want to thank you for listening. I hope that this landed with you. I hope that you're picking up what I'm laying down. I love you so much, and I will see you in the next one. Bye.
